Ok so... um. how should I start????
so. I don't know when I first found Deviantart. I was here since at least 2006 ish? but I didn't make an account. I was afraid since I never made accounts for many sites (only myspace, gaiaonline and neopets.) so this was VARY new having my own works on DA.
2009 however I actually made an account. want to know why? Sakuyamon
I used to stalk her page before I had an account. and in 12th grade of school I was showing her account to someone in class and they said "why don't you just talk to her?" I freaked out but eventually made an account for the sole goal of talking to this one artist who I admired with all my heart. However I got cold feet and chose not to... I did leave a comment to which she never replied and I felt like an idiot.
after a while of uploading drawings I had made many years prior to their upload.
I realized famous or well known artists want to be left alone for the most part (at least alone in the sense of they don't want random fans dry humping their art in a crazy frenzy) so I felt someday I would want to be a well known artist and be the "one famous artist that doesn't shun their fans!" however that didn't last long once I started to read journals from famous artist describing how sorry they were for not replying but its hard to when your inbox is ALWAYS FULL. So once I grew up from being a child who wants to meet their hero I figured it was about time to just do my own thing and grow myself :3
Then I started playing on GPXplus.net and well...that happened >.>
And I started to plot evil things with ShinyWoopWoop
and became a co-founder with maniacalmarie16
((lineart was done by maniacalmarie too >.> ))
It was AMAZING! I was so happy! I loved it so much. I was able to draw and create and make people happy! which then I realized was what I wanted to do
Mani was really nice and was the first person I really talked to.
Soon to join many other groups. like
And I even made my own adopt group too! (which was later deleted>.>....)
((which had a huge opening free adopt for december (one per person I think it was >.>)) but then I grew out of that too and after a few years just gave up <:/
2011 I entered my first contest!
and met some AMAZING people there too! Like Cold-Creature
Whom I freaking loved to bits XD I soon lost to ZannyHyper
Which idk if they realized HOW MUCH IT HURT ME and I realized I needed to calm down XD to get the entry in that I lost with. I just got home from my boyfriends and it was almost time for the entry folder to close. then I found out the internet was down. started to cry and called my boyfriend who drove back to my house. picked me up. and drove to his house so I could upload it... then drove me home....again... (I'm still with him too! he puts up with me ;A
So to lose that round REALLY hurt. it bothered me too since it was the first time I actually TRIED. and I realized ever since. when I TRY and start early on my entry and do research... I will loose... and so far every tournament I have done that I start early and try... the round I give my all in. I loss...WTF? anyway.
I joned PMD-e
and realized after one round... I needed a tablet... badly.. my scanner sucked at the time and well...yeah.
I started to ink my works after that which is why my blueskytournament pictures came out nice :3 went through LOTS of money and black sharpies >.>...
After I lost the tournament I joined pokemoncrossing. mostly because I saw TamarinFrog
join and I was like "....I need to talk to her one day!" So I did
(she is really nice btw!!! but like many other well known artist don't be mad if she doesn't respond! she has lots of comments to go through and I have deleted comments by mistake so I can ONLY imagine!) and I went through the members list trying to find a character for my character to date....yes. I joined the group actually GOING for this XD and thats how I met WackyTwillight
And she became the closet friend I ever had on Da. mostly because rather then us wondering off we stuck together for a really long time XD so that made me happy
I then met solar or the-mage-of-space
who became friends almost before meeting (thats how fast it happened!) and LivewireSparks
together we formed the corner suns and a bit of celery. Honestly This moment in DA was my most cherished. when all 5 of us were together.
The end of 2011 I got my first tablet.
Not ashamed of this because it was my first time ever using it
2012 I joined some groups....left those groups... and well yeah. it was a full year but just nothing that wasnt already happening :/
which didn't take off like the corner suns hoped. honestly it was partly because we were never all on the same page? and it got confusing XD after that we tried fixing it and well. between school and life no one had time. So we kind of drifted from that project >.>
I joined another tournament XD Which Sakuyamon entered and well of course I HAD to! here was my chance once more to talk to her! (I did a little bit... wasn't sure it she was rude or not... couldnt tell >.>...)
Needless to say I lost that too. but I lost during the same round she lost too and I felt like maybe I am at her art level in my own way? but I wouldnt realize this until the next tournament I would lose >.>
2013 I joined
and soon became an admin
. however during this time the corner suns were beginning their crazy lives and we would soon separate a little bit. I haven't really spoken much to them since. but we all still love each other like celery we just became so busy.
I again joined another tournament
However I left during the 3rd round... knowing I would loss due to time and I just couldnt handle it. I found it to be a good feeling when I dropped out and sakuyamon lost that round... I felt bad. but it made me see I knew where my limit was and when I was ready I will face it head on. but I just wasn't ready. (we arent rivals but she is were I want to be someday so to watch her makes me feel like not all famous or well known artists are end all be all. they are normal people. and I'm a normal person. so in turn I'm an amazing artist... just not to everyone else XD)
After a long LONG gap between art I finally joined
. and here I am now
Hope you all enjoyed my story :3