Shop Mobile More Submit  Join Login
About Digital Art / Hobbyist Premium Member Jaime Papa23/Female/United States Group :icondigimon-imperium: Digimon-Imperium
 
Recent Activity
Deviant for 5 Years
2 Month Premium Membership:
Given by JaymiSaeki
Statistics 673 Deviations 9,174 Comments 19,443 Pageviews

Activity


So after the last update I'm still having trouble eating at home. and now anywhere. again. however it wasnt painful. I'm just scared IF it starts to hurt and then I get paranoid and start to have a mini panic attack.

I ended up getting sick. I thought it was strep like I get every year around this time. turns out everyone around here who got the flu shot ended up with horrible throat problems ;A; but THATS all gone now... after I took meds that didn't mix well with others without thinking and ended up high... I embarrassed myself so badly in front of my boyfriends mother ;A; I NEVER mix meds but when I get sick this time of year I just take what I take and never give it a second thought.... but I took my anxiety stuff too without thinking about BOTH of them together... NEVER AGAIN ;A; 

so I finally felt ok to eat at home. the foods I eat don't bother me themselves. so I ate a chili dog :3 I love those. and as you all know stress causes me problems.... so what happens as soon as im done eating? the refrigerator broke. my mother and I paid the landlord rent by buying ourselves a fridge (that the landlord can keep when we leave) since my mom has alot of credit at home depot and it was the only way last year we could "pay" for rent.

well so my mom is freaking out. my dad is only making it worse. and im just trying to calmly watch youtube because as soon as it started my stomach started to just jump.... well after being in the bathroom I feel a bit better but my recovery is going to be a bigger pain then I was hopping. being home or ANYWHERE there is any kind of stress seems to bother me. idk how I will learn to live like this... how will I become a proper adult and move out? do my own things? can I handle it? probably not....



And of course my subscription is up ;A; I will buy another one later this month when there is a sale >.> stupid ads.....
  • Mood: Anxious
  • Watching: TheSw1tcher on youtube
  • Eating: .

Full update - How I got better

Journal Entry: Wed Nov 19, 2014, 8:45 AM
  • Mood: Triumph
  • Eating: Everything .w.
  • Drinking: water
So after the last update I'm still having trouble eating at home. and now anywhere. again. however it wasnt painful. I'm just scared IF it starts to hurt and then I get paranoid and start to have a mini panic attack.

I ended up getting sick. I thought it was strep like I get every year around this time. turns out everyone around here who got the flu shot ended up with horrible throat problems ;A; but THATS all gone now... after I took meds that didn't mix well with others without thinking and ended up high... I embarrassed myself so badly in front of my boyfriends mother ;A; I NEVER mix meds but when I get sick this time of year I just take what I take and never give it a second thought.... but I took my anxiety stuff too without thinking about BOTH of them together... NEVER AGAIN ;A; 

so I finally felt ok to eat at home. the foods I eat don't bother me themselves. so I ate a chili dog :3 I love those. and as you all know stress causes me problems.... so what happens as soon as im done eating? the refrigerator broke. my mother and I paid the landlord rent by buying ourselves a fridge (that the landlord can keep when we leave) since my mom has alot of credit at home depot and it was the only way last year we could "pay" for rent.

well so my mom is freaking out. my dad is only making it worse. and im just trying to calmly watch youtube because as soon as it started my stomach started to just jump.... well after being in the bathroom I feel a bit better but my recovery is going to be a bigger pain then I was hopping. being home or ANYWHERE there is any kind of stress seems to bother me. idk how I will learn to live like this... how will I become a proper adult and move out? do my own things? can I handle it? probably not....



And of course my subscription is up ;A; I will buy another one later this month when there is a sale >.> stupid ads.....
  • Mood: Anxious
  • Watching: TheSw1tcher on youtube
  • Eating: .

Groups

Comments


Add a Comment:
 
:icondevilkitteh666:
DevilKitteh666 Featured By Owner Nov 15, 2014  Hobbyist Filmographer
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! Birthday cake  icon 
Reply
:iconbirthdays:
birthdays Featured By Owner Nov 15, 2014

:woohoo: :party: :iconcakelickplz: !!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY !!! :iconcakelickplz: :party: :woohoo: 


It's November 15th which means it's that time of the year again and your special day is here! We hope you have an awesome day with lots of birthday fun, gifts, happiness and most definitely, lots of cake! Here's to another year! 


Many well wishes and love from your friendly birthdays team :love: 

--- 
Birthdays Team 
This birthday greeting was brought to you by: HillsOfSilence

Reply
:iconjasperinity:
Jasperinity Featured By Owner Nov 15, 2014
Happy birthday! :D
Reply
:iconwackytwillight:
WackyTwillight Featured By Owner Nov 15, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Hey, Rabies! I know we haven't talked in a while but Happy Birthday! I hope you're feeling better. Hang in there, buddy! C:
Reply
(1 Reply)
:icondracheron:
Dracheron Featured By Owner Nov 15, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Happy birthday, I wish you have a nice day and if still you didn't get any better I hope you become good once again.
Reply
(1 Reply)
Add a Comment: